Ciara

Radical Acceptance

Let’s talk about the most difficult skill, in my opinion, to practice. The way I define and understand radical acceptance is when you stop fighting reality, while also preventing pain from turning into suffering. For example, when I was in treatments and therapy, I had a really hard time accepting the fact that I wouldContinue reading “Radical Acceptance”

The Power of Peers

I wanted to talk about group therapy today, and the impact it had on me. I never was one for groups of any size, and I’m still not. When I was about to be enrolled into Rogers for the first time, I knew it involved a lot of group therapy, and I was not thrilledContinue reading “The Power of Peers”

Winter Time Blues

I knew something wasn’t right when I would break my mirror and hide the pieces to use later. When I started to hate the sport I used to play for hours. There it was, this darkness that hung over me that only I could see. How could something that dark, and dreadful go unnoticed? IContinue reading “Winter Time Blues”

The Dangers of Stigma

As I have said in previous posts, I was very ashamed when I received my diagnosis of Borderline. Let’s face it, there are not too many good things to read about it on the internet. TV crime shows is another example. I am a big fan of criminal minds, and a lot of the timeContinue reading “The Dangers of Stigma”

BPD Symptoms: Dissociation

When I was first told that I have BPD, I had to get past all of the shame in order to do my own research. I looked up the symptoms and all of them were pretty accurate for me, except for dissociation. I read about it and I didn’t think I have ever experienced thatContinue reading “BPD Symptoms: Dissociation”

BPD Symptoms: Self Destruction

Why did I self destruct? The answer was never as simple as I wanted it to be. Everybody’s reason is different and and there is no clear cut solution. My self harm method was cutting, and I kept it at bay for a while. However, over time it turned more into a habit and IContinue reading “BPD Symptoms: Self Destruction”

BPD Symptoms: Fear of Abandonment

When being diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, there are 9 symptoms/criteria that they look for. And in order to officially be diagnosed, you have to “fit” at least 5 of them. One of the main symptoms of BPD is fear of abandonment. This fear, for me, was the hardest one to cope with in theContinue reading “BPD Symptoms: Fear of Abandonment”

There is Hope

Yesterday was the three year anniversary of my last suicide attempt. I have been free of them for three years now, and it hasn’t been smooth sailing; life never is. One of the main things I learned while I was in treatment was the reason behind negative emotions. I always wondered why we can’t justContinue reading “There is Hope”

Everything Became Clear

I live with Borderline Personality Disorder. I wanted to put this out there right away and say that I am unashamed of this diagnosis. However, it did not start out that way. I was in a residential treatment program when I first received this diagnosis officially. I was in denial at first because I haveContinue reading “Everything Became Clear”