Tag Archives: Suicide Awareness

Double Standards

Throughout my journey in therapy, residential treatments, day treatments, hospitalizations and safety plans, there was one belief I have had. I always believed that everyone else deserved to be happy and to reach recovery; everyone except me. I held a great deal of shame for the ways I reacted and behaved when I was notContinue reading “Double Standards”

It’s Not Just Anger

One of the most beneficial pieces of information I learned during my time in therapy was that anger is a secondary emotion. Emotions are complicated the way it is, but now there are different types of emotions; primary and secondary. And probably a few more that I am unaware of. So, for those who don’tContinue reading “It’s Not Just Anger”

Trust Me

I lost my parent’s trust for a while, when I was going through my mental health struggles. Every time I attempted, I lied to them as to where I was going before I did it. My first attempt, the car crash, I kept it a secret that it was intentional for almost a year. AllContinue reading “Trust Me”

You Matter

It’s September guys; which means it is Suicide Prevention Month. And today, the 10th, is National Suicide Prevention Day. I take this month very seriously because I am a mental health advocate, and have dealt with these challenges personally. And I wanted to use this post today for reflection purposes only. Usually I try toContinue reading “You Matter”

Turning My Fear Into Passion

During my senior year in high school, I participated in a day treatment program for teenagers struggling with mental health. It was either that or go back to the hospital, and I was definitely not doing that. So, I talked with my guidance counselor about the options for treatment and how it was going toContinue reading “Turning My Fear Into Passion”

The Lowest Low

TRIGGER WARNING: There will be talk of an attempt on my life in this blog. They say you have to hit rock bottom in order to change and live a better life right? Well, whoever said it wasn’t lying. And the thing is that everybody’s rock bottom looks different. When I was going through theContinue reading “The Lowest Low”

Stubborn, Willful, Difficult

I never wanted to enroll in a treatment program, much less be ordered to do it by the court. It was safe to assume I was not going to be a walk in the park kind of patient. And I wasn’t, for a long time. However, I was never rude to my therapist or myContinue reading “Stubborn, Willful, Difficult”

The Power of Peers

I wanted to talk about group therapy today, and the impact it had on me. I never was one for groups of any size, and I’m still not. When I was about to be enrolled into Rogers for the first time, I knew it involved a lot of group therapy, and I was not thrilledContinue reading “The Power of Peers”

Winter Time Blues

I knew something wasn’t right when I would break my mirror and hide the pieces to use later. When I started to hate the sport I used to play for hours. There it was, this darkness that hung over me that only I could see. How could something that dark, and dreadful go unnoticed? IContinue reading “Winter Time Blues”